Ergane ([info]kyooverse) wrote,
@ 2007-12-12 15:03:00
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Current mood:unsettled

I am a stupid fuck.
After writing my last entry, I moved through the house with the purposes of eating and attitude adjusting. Gathering my ingredients at the coffee table, I started making my lunch while scrolling through our DVR to see what we had. Now, if you have Comcast DVR, you know that it always upgrades to HD if it can. HD programs take up twice as much memory as regular TV. In order to maintain as much space as possible, I watch HD programs first. Some programming I have to watch with Ryan -- you know, sort of our date thing -- so I can't watch that when he's at work (because he can't watch it with me). However, I record things for myself -- little things I might be interested in that he doesn't care too much about... and "dirty" tv... like I Love New York 2.

After I finished watching I Love New York 2 and thought about all the things I'd like to do with Tailor-Made (Sure, I like Buddha... hell, I LOVE Buddha, but his attitude turns me off), I saw that Alpha Dogs was on. I had recorded it because the other day, after I recorded Big Love the tuner stayed on HBO and I caught a glimpse of it. I caught Justin Timberlake, Amanda Seyfried from Big Love, Charity Shea from The Best Years -- just one little snapshot of these actors I know and love and hot Timberlake all shirtless and pink-nubby nippled.

I knew that boy was going to be killed at 28 minutes.

Now, an hour and 35 minutes into this movie, it is about to happen and I am beside myself. I don't want to watch and I know I have to watch. I have to watch for all sorts of really messed up reasons like... to honor this beautiful kid's spirit since I think it is based in reality. I am so upset, y'all. So upset. I am not even playing. And Ryan wasn't home when I started this entry, but he is now and so if I fall apart...

Fucking A... what did I JUST tell myself about making sure to reach out towards light in the dark days?!

Edit: It was ok because he isn't killed and then the movie ends. It is based on a true story, tho. But, I learned that I am no longer against the death penalty. Rye turned on the Christmas lights.


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[info]eri_quito
2007-12-12 11:17 pm UTC (link)
you
crack.me.up.

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[info]kyooverse
2007-12-13 01:03 am UTC (link)
*scratches head* Huh?

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[info]eri_quito
2007-12-13 05:38 am UTC (link)
Your thought process. I think we have the same brain.

I laugh a lot when I read your posts because you write exactly the same way I think.

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[info]kyooverse
2007-12-13 06:05 am UTC (link)
*smiles*

.... we should hang out sometime...

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[info]eri_quito
2007-12-13 09:56 am UTC (link)
Definateiy. . . . .but only if you are a quality human being. This is because a few days ago I decided to stop meeting the other type.

I'm just kidding. You can be a train wreck also, if you want. I'm very good at meeting those.

>;}

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[info]kyooverse
2007-12-13 06:08 am UTC (link)
Oh my goodness... of COURSE! You are a Libra... there would be overlap. Like, reading your poetry reminds me of my own -- the way you break it down and arrive... and I am not being conceited... I think that's why I like it so much. Of course, you have more of an edge than I do and a better poetic eye, but that's besides the point...

Libras rule!

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[info]eri_quito
2007-12-13 09:58 am UTC (link)
We are also very good at self depreciation. NOW STOP!

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your ass is rough
[info]i_dread
2007-12-13 12:01 am UTC (link)
christmas light death, my word!
I heard lotion softens rough ass

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[info]kyooverse
2007-12-13 01:03 am UTC (link)
I don't get it.

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[info]i_dread
2007-12-13 03:07 am UTC (link)
that means, I fell flat. my bad.

but....it refers to this line:
"But, I learned that I am no longer against the death penalty. Rye turned on the Christmas lights" my thinking your ass is rough. rough signifying drying skin which can be cured with lotion. your ass is rough is also a term used to state that you are a mean momma, as in strict.

my humor is dry. maybe I need some lotion.

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[info]kyooverse
2007-12-13 04:16 am UTC (link)
Nah, don't think of it like that -- seriously. I never heard the expression is all and before I jumped to any conclusions or defensiveness (especially because it's you), I wanted you to know I didn't understand what you were trying to communicate.

Have you seen Alpha Dog? What that did to that child was... you wouldn't do that to a dog... or worse, you would. Be kind to it even as you planned to execute it.

... Daddy-o, you're made of lotion... *grins* (smoooooooth!)

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[info]i_dread
2007-12-13 07:18 am UTC (link)
I followed the actual event. Yea, it was a damn shame, you know how people get all man-up'ed. Same shit happens in War, even when you can't find the enemy, someone has to pay. People suck.

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[info]kozmicgreys
2007-12-13 01:31 am UTC (link)
Is that snow on your hair in your icon? It's an adorable pic.

Not into Punk? I love Tailor Made, I hope he wins. I haven't seen the most recent episode yet so I dunno if he made it into the top two, but if NY drops him, she's crazy

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[info]kyooverse
2007-12-13 04:28 am UTC (link)
Danke... Like I said to [info]stilllove, "Hee! Just editing -- I turned the white exposure up and then saturated it, sharpened it, and played with the hue. Glad you like it!"

Honestly... I don't feel any... like he has that body... which is banging, right? And he isn't bad to look at (although he does have those droopy pop-eyes, as we called them in the country), and he's really cool... and educated and blah... but tell me... did you ever feel anything... sexual about him at all? True, he's husband material all the way, but I never wanted to pounce on him. Eye candy, but not masturbation candy.

... now, a naked picture might help... but doubtful.

And I ain't gone tell you who's in the final two....!

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[info]kozmicgreys
2007-12-16 06:57 pm UTC (link)
Ah, I finally got to see the last episode. I'm so glad Tailor Made is still in it!! lol The finale should be fun.
Punk's body was a little over the top for me but it wouldn't be so bad if he weren't so... milquetoast? bland? calliflower? You know? He was a good dresser tho. Without clothes he probably wasn't so bad either!

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Like It Is!
[info]stilllove
2007-12-13 02:34 am UTC (link)
Is that snow or soap in your hair? Ohhh the locs look so glorious!!!

You're no longer against the death penalty. Sigh. It was a tough day when I discovered that I was no longer against it. I still am sort of, but man there are some people... all this oh they suffer more alive, whatever, some people, this world would be better off without. That's just how it is.

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[info]kyooverse
2007-12-13 04:21 am UTC (link)
Hee! Just editing -- I turned the white exposure up and then saturated it, sharpened it, and played with the hue. Glad you like it! Right now, tho, I am vastly overdue for a washing, a twisting and all that, but my locs are surprising me... there's some reaching out, but I can still run my hands (... why did I nearly say "paws?) thru them.

Yeah... I'm no longer against the death penalty whole stop. Those boys deserve the death penalty for what they did. They do. I would say this is a loss of innocence, but it came from within me too readily to be shocking and I meant that shit, too. Like you say, some people!! I guess it's a kind of vengeance... maybe... but some people don't deserve to live once they have crossed certain lines of inhumanity.

... btw, I am not so sure Aileen Wuornos was one of them... I mean, she was mentally ill and abused, but you know patriarchy ain't gonna have no "prostitute" killing men...

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[info]stilllove
2007-12-18 12:48 am UTC (link)
I agree with that 100%. I never thought she should have gotten the death penalty.

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[info]supremegoddess1
2007-12-13 04:15 am UTC (link)
One of my few "rightist" beliefs is that I am pro-death penalty in certain cases. Having not seen the movie you're referencing, may I ask what it is that made you come to this decision?

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[info]kyooverse
2007-12-13 04:25 am UTC (link)
Basically... they kidnapped a 15 year old boy because his brother owed him money... ... you have to see it yourself. I... I can't recount it.

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